Monthly Archives: April 2016

Smiling when you fucking want to and also Protein Bars


Warning:  I’m pissed and I am going to say “Fuck“.  A lot.

Men need to stop telling women they see on the street to smile.

If they like smiling so much, then maybe they should walk down the street smiling for absolutely no fucking reason at all.  At least then women will know from a safe distance that the man is a lunatic and should be avoided because who else but a wack job would just be walking down the street with a smile on their face?






smīl/e  verb

form one’s features into a pleased, kind, or amused expression, typically with the corners of the mouth turned up and the front teeth exposed.

So here is the breakdown of why  I am cracking down on this thing of men telling women they should smile:

  1. They don’t deserve it.

Okay so who in the hell are you that you think just because you are on the street at the same time that I am that I would be pleased and amused and want to express that toward you?  Unless you are Bradley Cooper, Daniel Craig or David Beckham, who I also don’t personally know, then I am not going to smile at you as I walk down the street by myself just because you said so.  You  deserve a throat punch from me not a smile.

  1.  It is harassment.

Shouting to a stranger “You’re not even going to smile for me?!”  Is not less offensive than shouting, “You’re a bitch!”  because both make a woman feel unsafe.  

  1.  You don’t get to tell me what to do.

This is a command to perform something, a smile.  It is saying, “Show me you are pleased with me even though you don’t even know who the hell I am.”   No.   I smile when I want to.  

  1.  It’s rapey.  There I said it.  Do women ever do this?  Hell no! It is a domination thing, an intimidation thing.  We do not tell men to smile.  We do not randomly tell each other to smile. Men do not do this to other men.

Okay okay, so here’s what happened:  

When this happened to me recently,  my mind was on the spin training I was on my way to so of course I didn’t expect the shout directed at me, “What you’re not even going to smile for me?”  and I simply brushed it off and ignored the asshole but the more I thought about it, the more it pissed me off.   If this ever happens to me again,  Here is what they will get:   

TeethSo how do you like me now? Huh?  Am I prettier now?

I wonder how this will make him feel?  Maybe horrified?  Maybe a little bit attacked?  Maybe he will think twice before doing it again to another woman?  Maybe it will piss him off, I don’t know but I am not going to do what this person says and I am not going to give them the satisfaction of thinking that they intimidated me.  Also, fuck him.

I also hate that my daughters will have to deal with this.  In fact, they already do.  I also hate that much worse happens to women each and every day.  This one thing is enough to make my blood boil.

So for the record it is not okay when a man does this to a woman.  Just in case anyone thought so.  It is straight up harassment and it makes a woman feel unsafe.  Also, even if you know the person, it is still rude because you are actually just calling her a bitch whether you know her or not.

And now here is something to really smile about!  You may be walking down the street and remember you have one of these chocolaty satisfying snacks in your bag for later and then you won’t be able to help but smile!

Protein Bar





Protein Bars recipe

  • 2  1/4 cups whey protein
  • 1 cup almond butter
  • 1 cup coconut unsweetened
  • 4 tbs raw honey
  • ¼ cup cocoa
  • 1 tbs cinnamon
  • 1tsp vanilla extract
  • 1 tsp Himalayan salt divided into 3/4 tsp and 1/4 tsp
  • 1/2 of an 85% – 90% dark chocolate bar.


  1. Combine all ingredients in a food processor and blend till combined.
  2. Pour and mold into a 7 x 5 x 1.5 inch glass container lined with wax paper
  3. Melt half a 85% or 95% dark chocolate bar in the microwave and spread all over the top and sprinkle with 1/4 tsp Himalayan salt.
  4. Refrigerate for a couple of hours at least and then cut into ten pieces.  Wrap individually in wax lined foil paper and store in the refrigerator.


  • Total Protein   17.6
  • Total Carbs  15.82 
  • Total Fat 22.44
  • Total Calories  317.7
  • 7 grams of sugar 

People are Awesome!





Sometimes someone you may not really know can totally make your day.

I freaking love that.

If you ever have the urge to say something kind and encouraging to someone or to give them a random compliment, I say do it.

You never know how much that will help someone with whatever it is that they are going through.

I have this tendency to hurt myself with little yet devastating injuries from working out.  I am not usually one you need to push to do more.  If you do push me, I will totally smash myself.  It isn’t smart but I will do it nonetheless.  I am on a journey to learn how to push myself without hurting myself.  To train smart and not just hard.  I just get into a sort of “beast mode” and will do things that maybe I shouldn’t do.  It is now my official quest to learn this delicate important balance.  

My latest injury has been a hip flexor strain.  Long story short, I over did it with many fast v sits and jumped right into sprints and  found myself racing a man who is fast and fit and winning and getting really freakin pumped over it so yeah!  Go bitch go! A switch went off and well, 2 days later all the DOMS you can imagine but I kept on going because stupid.  A week later, I strained my right hip flexor.  So there I was with a stupid injury and a certification training in 2 weeks.  Needless to say, I was pissed at myself.  Ice, ibuprofen and total rest for a few days.  I got checked out by my physical therapist.  I love her.  I was good to go but not so fast.  Got back to a spin class on Friday and was feeling great.  Next day, however, a little sore and a little tight so I headed to Sunday yoga class.  

I realized that I was stressing about not going to my classes and if my girl crush instructors were going to be disappointed and think I was a slacker for not showing up to my 5:30 a.m. classes all week.  This has been causing me anxiety as silly as that may sound.  I know strong women are not supposed to care what other people think of them but I’m being completely honest here.  While I couldn’t give a flying frog about what a lot of people think about me, I do care about what the people who matter think and the people who matter in this situation are the ones that I either consider my mentors, coaches and role models or peers who have similar interests and values.  I read somewhere that this has something to do with my birth order.  I am the oldest child of six and they say that makes me a “pleaser”.  In my case it’s true.  I am not only dedicated to my own fitness, but I am dedicated to classes, the instructors, the group, the routine, the community of it all.  It’s a big part of my world and when I can’t do it I am not happy.  Now here’s the part where someone totally made my day today.

I saw one of my early bird classmates at yoga and she said that she missed me in pump.  I was so happy to hear that and to have an opportunity to explain why I wasn’t there all week and that I absolutely HATE to miss my classes.  She was super kind, compassionate and encouraging and it totally lifted a burden off of me.  She encouraged me to rest it and not further injure it, which I already know I should to.  Hearing it from a classmate gave me such a relief and made me feel supported.  It may seem like a little thing, but it made me feel like a huge weight had been lifted.  

My plan this week leading up to my training is going to be to not do early classes and get sleep to heal.  I will do upper body strength exercises such as push ups, planks, dips and chin ups and for cardio I will do jump rope.  I will get to another yoga class and maybe some Pilates.  I will spend my evenings studying my Spin manual and taking notes and come Saturday, I will be ready for that training.  I will schedule a massage for Sunday.

Now I am really feeling positive about the week ahead!  

So thank you gym friend!  You made my day!

People are awesome.

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Gym friend who made my day is 5th from left. I’m second from the right and one of my girl crush instructors is in front. I want to be just like her when I grow up.  And yeah, it was St. Patrick’s Day so that’s why the green.